Music, Life, Love, and More Music (not in order)

I don't know weather I wish to cry, or punch a wall. How in the world did I think I could get over him? He is a part of me. He helped me in my time of need....and now when I wish to help him, he says he doesn't want me to get mixed up in all of the "bad stuff" he has been around lately...
I'm a good kid! I always have, but if it takes me getting into trouble to show him how much I really don't care, then fine, BRING ON THE TROUBLE!
What am I saying? That'll only make it worse, because he'll think it's his fault. It's not. It's mine. I told you he doesn't care, which I thought he didn't, but he does. He cares a lot. And he's trying to be a good person, keeping me away from all of the bad stuff in life, but that's like trying to shield me from an on coming car colision while you're in a completely different car five miles behind me. It's not logical.
Music has been in my head as long as I can remember. It's how I live through everything in the world. Can't explain how I feel, I'll know a song that does. MUSIC IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. It has never once let me down. Right now, I have about 5 songs that explain how I feel. The main one being Miley Cyrus' The Climb. It's actually a good song.
Life. Sometimes I miss it. It's back two years ago when everything was so much easier. Now life almost isn't worth living, because it's so hard, but I musn't think of death, because of all the things; people I love, Music to sooth the soul, my possessions, and myself: that I'd leave behind.
Music. When the headphones are on, the only thing that matters is weather the volume can be turned up any louder. I think I'd like to Lose myself in the music right now. and my writings.

Signed & Laced with Dreams (broken or not)
Tandice