2.9.2010

Dear Josh,

I hate you. I really really hate you. I need a new best fiend because obviously you don't care. I hate you. I don't need you anymore, so I'm going to do what you could never do. Get Lost.

xoxo,
Amour

2.8.2010

Dear Josh,

I hope for snow tomorrow. I'll spend as many hours as it takes to shovel snow if I get one day off to talk to you as much as I want.

xoxo,
Amour

How to say I Love You in 100 Languages



English - I love you
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumem
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bengali - Ami tomake bhalobashi (pronounced: Amee toe-ma-kee bhalo-bashee)
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Catalan - T'estimo
Cherokee - Tsi ge yu i
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Chinese
Cantonese - Ngo oiy ney a
Mandarin - Wo ai ni
Comanche - U kamakutu nu
(pronounced oo----ka-ma-koo-too-----nu) -- Thx Tony
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Cree - Kisakihitin
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Elvish - Amin mela lle (from The Lord of The Rings, by J.R.R. Tolkien)
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Filipino - Mahal kita
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Frisian - Ik hald fan dy
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha Au Ia`oe
Hebrew
To female - "ani ohev otach" (said by male) "ohevet Otach" (said by female)
To male - "ani ohev otcha" (said by male) "Ohevet ot'cha" (said by female)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru or Anata ga daisuki desu
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo or Nanun tangshinul sarang hamnida
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Luxembourgeois - Ech hun dech gaer
Macedonian - Te Sakam
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Maltese - Inhobbok
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Ndebele - Niyakutanda
Norwegian
Bokmaal - Jeg elsker deg
Nyonrsk - Eg elskar deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te iubesc
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing 'I Love You')
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Surinam - Mi lobi joe
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai
To female - Phom rak khun
To male - Chan rak khun
Informal - Rak te
Tunisian - Ha eh bak
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese
To female - Anh ye^u em
To male - Em ye^u anh
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu di
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe
Zazi - Ezhele hezdege
Zuni - Tom ho' ichema

2.7.2010

Dear Josh,

Everything I want is at my fingertips. It reminds me of when a butterfly lands on you, and just sits there. The way you stop breathing to admire it's beauty, and you wonder whether to catch it or let it fly away. Everything I want has landed on me in the form of a butterfly, and I've stopped doing anything just so I could admire the beauty of what I want. And then I let it go...I let you go. I don't catch it, because it's not worth it when it's forced...

So, dear butterfly. What are you to do now?

xoxo,
Amour

2.6.2010

Dear Josh,

I hate what you do to me. I hate how you make me feel so vunerable, I hate how much I need you, as a friend and as a person. I hate how everytime I think, it relates to you, and I can pretty much garentee that if I were to die soon the last thing to go throug my mind would be you...and I hate that feeling.

Sometimes I stay awake at night just to try and figure it all out.

Why?

I just want to know why I feel this why, and why you don't. I keep telling myself I am going to get over this, that it's just a phase, but I dont believe it anymore than I have the courage to say it aloud. It's crazy to let myself go on with this, and maybe its why I do the things I do that cause me harm, maybe thats why I'm so determined to make you realize that you need me, maybe that's why I haven't written a letter that says goodbye, or left you to fend for youself, or dropped off the face of your world...even though that's what I dearly want.

Dear, dear Josh, Why don't you care? Why do I see things so differently than you, and why don't you just tell me the truth?! Why don't you just tell me to get out of here, to help me get on with my life and to stop worrying about you and myself and what could happen, what won't happen, and what I want to happen? Why is it when I pull away you call me back...is there actually hope that you need me too, just as I need you, as I've told you a million times before?

If I asked you, you would tell me that I don't understand...but maybe I do.

"Don't EVER tell me I dont understand."

Why can't I be strong, like you? Why can't I just come out and say, "Josh, I want you to leave me alone. I don't what anything to do with you anymore, I'm tired of what you do to me, so just leave me be!"? Because, Josh, I know you. I know how vunerable you can be when you have no one to turn to, and the sad truth is: You don't even turn to me all that much. I know you don't. I know that I don't know anything about you, and to know that makes me so sad...I don't even know what to think of it anymore.

And it truely kills me to know that no one even reads this blog anymore. It's like I'm talking to no one, like I'm rabmling on to myself. I just don't see the point in even writing anymore, because no one cares. I smile when I feel I'm not ready to smile, I take the extra step to show that I'm still aware of what I'm going through, but that no one else knows. I hold my head up just so I can get through the day without shedding a tear.

So, dear, dear, Joshua a part of me is leaving you behind. I'm just going to figure out someway to take the rest of me and leave you all behind. Until then, I think I'm going to start finding new ways to get over you. At least until you don't need me anymore...


xoxo,
Amour


P.S.: I have a feeling that when I get over you, you're going to undersand why you need me and come back.

2.4.2010

Dear Josh,

Maybe I'm in over my head on this a little bit. It's quite obvious I feel things about you that you don't feel about me. But I guess we can't all be perfect. The whole, liking a guy and them not liking you back is basically the story of my life, and as much as I hate it I'm not sure how I'd be able to change it. I've delt with this all my life and there isn't much more I can do about it. I just wanted you to know that maybe sometime soon you could, you know....tell me to get lost so I can get over you? Please?

xoxo,
Amour

2.3.2010

Dear Josh,

A breif word to you, dear friend. You give my stomach butterflies, and it's so hard to ignore the feelins inside. When will you see what I feel, and tell me whether you feel the same or not?

xoxo,
Amour

2.2.2010

Dear Josh,

Why is it I am so disappointed in myself? I mean, sure, I told myself that I was going to get over myself and not fall in love. But I shouldn't have made that promise. I broke it and I'm suffering for it. I can't stand the feelings I feel when something happens. To be quite honest, all these feelings are for you.

Until tonight, when I will explain...

xoxo,
Amour

2.1.2010 (a second letter)

Dear Josh,

I'm so confused about life. I'm so confused about you. I feel like I'm getting mixed signals, if I'm getting any at all. And they hurt. They are breaking me apart. Worse than what I was before. So what am I to do?

xoxo,
Amour

2.1.2010

Dear Josh,

Valentine's Day is soon. Will you be my Valentine? Sigh. We talked about love today in english. We are about to start Romeo and Juliet. And by takling about love I got to thinking. Josh, do you love me? I hope so.

Today I started writing a short story. Maybe once I'm done I'll put it on here. I'd really like you to read it.

Happy By NeverShoutNever!
You make me happy, whether you know it or not
We should be happy, that's what I said from the start
I am so happy, Knowing you are the one that
I want for the rest of my days,
for the rest of my days, you're all of my days.
you're looking so cool, you're looking so fly,
I can't deny that when I'm staring you down
right dead in the eye, I wanna try to be the person you
want, the person you need,
it's hard to conceive that somebody like you,
could be, with someone like me

[Chorus:]
I'm happy knowing that you are mine,
the grass is greener on the other side,
The More I think, The more I wish that we
could lay here for hours, and justa reminisce.
Uh Ooh ooh!

you're looking so fresh it's catching my eye,
why oh why, did I not see this before,
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the girl I adore, was right in front of me.
and now I'll take a step back,
and look in your eye and ask why,
It took so long too see, we're meant to be.

[Chorus:]
I'm happy knowing that you are mine,
the grass is greener on the other side,
The More I think, The more I wish that
we could lay here for hours, and justa reminisce.

On the good, the bad, the ugly,
the smiles, the laughs, the funny.
oh all the things we put each
other through, it's for you, for you, for you!

You make me happy, whether you know it or not
We should be happy, that's what I said from the start
I am so happy, Knowing you are the one that
I want for the rest of my days, for the rest of my days.

[Chorus:]
I'm happy knowing that you are mine,
the grass is greener on the other side,
The More I think, The more I wish that we
could lay here for hours, and justa reminisce.
Uh Ooh Ooh!



xoxo,
Amour