Jumper cables

Is that what I am? Someone only here for when I'm needed most? Needed for money for something you shouldn't even need; wanted as a rebound relationship; a friend only when the others are not present?

Well I'm tired of being jumper cables. Find another person to be your backup singer, I'm starting my own band. (figure of speech. I'm not in a band)

Wounded and confused

Xoxo

A little red in the face...

Alright so this "friend" of mine, (well he isn't really a friend, but you get the picture) liked me, and kept annoying me. He tried to tell me that Bryce didn't love me. BIG MISTAKE. I was so mad that I threw my phone across the garage (a couple nights ago was when this happened.) And it just so happened that I don't really care about this person anyways.

So yesterday I told Bryce. He was (to put this bluntly in HIS words) pissed. So I was talking to him about it, me sitting in my little sisters tiny chair and him in the big chair. Well, let's say that the comment my "friend" made had left Bryce wanting to prove that hi did love me. He pulled me out of the tiny chair (thank god my butt didn't get stuck) and onto his lap, wrapped his arms around me, and kept his head on my shoulder.

"know why I'm doing this?"

"to show me that you love me...?"

"yupp."

Hehe. :D

But while I was on his lap my mom decided to come outside. Talk about BUSTED! She was all, "I don't want to see you on his lap again. I don't care if you hold hands, cuddle on the couch or hug but you're 14 and sitting on his lap is a little too much. I just don't want to see you get hurt by him again."

Talk about a little too protective. She said the same thing when I started to date him back in June. But I'm the one who's gonna get hurt, so what do I care?

I liked it better at his house. :)

Making my class list tomorrow. I'm going to try and get into band so I can have one class with Bryce.

Amused

Xoxo

At the End of the Day

I think life gets harder for me as the sun goes down. Like right now I wish to cry because of the things I miss and the things I will soon face.

Things I miss:
•Bryce. Isn't it obvious by now that I always miss him?

•His hugs (I didn't get one today)

•Being able to openly talk to him about anything (right now I'm paranoid about being judged which has a lot to do with school)

•Just everything about him, ya know?

Things I should expect, or am expecting for some odd reason:

•School sign ups to be a disaster.

•To find out Bryce is actually bipolar and that is the cause of his troubles. (I actually spent the time to look up bipolar disorder and he fits pretty well.)

•Bryce to tell me to get a life. (go ahead and ask why...)

•To be some kind of hated freak at school.

•To lose someone. (I'm not sure who, I just have a feeling)

I have more cons than pros. Ouchhs.

Teary eyed && tired

Xoxo

My own little world

There are times in my day where I only wish to disappear. It's a constant thing, and to satisify my need I created my own little twilight family...sorta. I have compared my life to the life of bella, and I did that once before-back before twilight hit the big spotlight.

Now I've put my people in the place of hers.

Bella: me. I have the same looks, clumsieness, and some what personality.

Edward: Bryce. He his not pale at all, but he thinks he's the bad guy and he thinks that me and him being together will cause me to get into trouble. But he's sweet.

Jacob: Kyle. I have only talked about him once, and that was about the time he asked me out. He and I were friends a few years ago but we were split up after a while. Now when bryce "left" I looked to Kyle to fill the void, just like bella does when edward leaves.

Ironic? Nope. But I also have switched it around (since I'm all for team Jacob)

Jacob: bryce. Tall, tan, muscular, acts before he has the chance to think. He's all into other girls (Jacob likes bella) but he doesn't see what bella tries to say when she wants him to leave. (does that make any sense?)

Nessy: me. I'm young. And for some reason I have bryce hooked to me from the start.

That's all.

Contemplating

Xoxo

My own little world

There are times in my day where I only wish to disappear. It's a
constant thing, and to satisify my need I created my own little
twilight family...sorta. I have compared my life to the life of bella,
and I did that once before-back before twilight hit the big spotlight.

Now I've put my people in the place of hers.

Bella: me. I have the same looks, clumsieness, and some what
personality.

Edward: Bryce. He his not pale at all, but he thinks he's the bad guy
and he thinks that me and him being together will cause me to get into
trouble. But he's sweet.

Jacob: Kyle. I have only talked about him once, and that was about the
time he asked me out. He and I were friends a few years ago but we
were split up after a while. Now when bryce "left" I looked to Kyle to
fill the void, just like bella does when edward leaves.

Ironic? Nope. But I also have switched it around (since I'm all for
team Jacob)

Jacob: bryce. Tall, tan, muscular, acts before he has the chance to
think. He's all into other girls (Jacob likes bella) but he doesn't
see what bella tries to say when she wants him to leave. (does that
make any sense?)

Nessy: me. I'm young. And for some reason I have bryce hooked to me
from the start.

That's all.

Contemplating

Xoxo