Rumors.

Pardon my language but there is no other way to say this. Rumors suck ass, along with the person who started it, except then it's an Elelphant's ass. Hopefully that elephant will sit on the person.
23 days!!!
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Depart...

I must depart, for I have to get ready for a family halloween party with my little sister. I might post pictures if can get my camera to work. I kinda dropped it.
Later.
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I am totally psyched!

There are only 28 days left till the Twilight Movie!!! don't But it is going to be AWESOME!!! Don't bother telling me if I spelled the title wrong.
Miss Anne, do know that I have invited Hailey to come to the movies with us, for she would like to see it too... (maybe we can get free popcorn off of her) Humm, I am wondering if there is a possibility that I can preoreder tickets soon. Let me know if anyone In my town finds out.
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Welcome Home....

Welcome Home
When I am gone, please don't cry; let me go.
I have so many things to see and do.
I have never dreamed I would do them without you.
Please don't tie yourself to me with tears,
Be happy that we've had our years.
I gave you my love, you can only guess,
How much you gave me in happiness.
I thank you for the love you have shown,
But now it's time I travel on alone.
So, grieve for me if you must;
Then let your grief be comforted by trust.
It's only for a while that we must part,
So bless the memories in your heart.
I won't be far away, for life goes on;
If you need me call and I will come.
Though you can't see or touch me,
I'll always be near;
And if you listen with your heart you will hear,
all my love around you soft and clear.
Then when you must come this way alone,
I'll greet you with a smile and welcome you home."

Again, I stole this poem from my friend, but I am kind of curious as to where she got it. Do tell me, friend, if you read this blog. I was ever so kind as to read yours and comment on almost all of your posts. You could answer this one question for me. <> but anyways, I, too, thought I should share it.

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Amazing Grace

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.
T'was Grace that taught...my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear...the hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares...we have already come.
T'was Grace that brought us safe thus far...and Grace will lead us home.
The Lord has promised good to me...
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be...as long as life endures.
When we've been here ten thousand years...bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise...then when we've first begun.
Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see."

So, I was looking at a friends blog, and she had this posted. I sang it, finally to be able to have all the words, and I almost started to cry. Seriously... It gave me cold chills and everything. It's really a great song though.
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ugh...

Youth group has gotten pathetic. Only 5 people showed up today!!! NewsFlash!!! God is supposed to come first, Christian or olny a believer. So Just to let you know Youth group has offically been changed to Thursdays starting the FIRST THURSDAY IN NOVEMBER!! make note of it, Avonlee, Hailey... I'll talk to you about it later.

In other news... IT MIGHT SNOW ON MONDAY!!! I mean, come on! It's freaking OCTOBER for crying out loud! Snow in October?!?!?! you have got to be kidding me.! No way in the world am I getting out my winter coat befort the 5th of November, and even then, my step mom is going to have to force me into it! Ha! Forget this, I'm ready to go trick-or-treating with my 2 year old cousin.

OMG, LIKE, I HAVE 30 DAYS LEFT TILL TWILIGHT!!! REJOYCE WITH ME PLEASE *does the happy dance that looks a lot like the 'i gotta pee' dance.* YAY!
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updated page!

Yeah, I updated my blog page, but I sorta have a problem... It's really slow. It's peing me off, to say it nicely. But hey, I got my Twilight quotes on.

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!

I FORGOT TO TELL YOU!!!!! TWILIGHT THE MOVIE COMES OUT IN ONE MONTH!!!!!! WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! THIS IS SOO EXCITHING! BUT GUESS WHAT COMES OUT ON THE 4TH??!?!??!?!?!?!? THE TWILIGHT SOUNDTRACK!!!! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! I THINK I'M HYPERVENTALATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BREATHE!!!

HALF DAY>>> YAY!!!

So today we had a half day. Yepp, But too bad I have to go to this stupid student led confrence, where yes.. I have to do all the talking with my teacher sitting RIGHT THERE!!! GAH! talk about nerve recking!!! I'm having a hard time reading what I type cause I used such a light color.. and I don't even know why. Well i'm going to serf the web, or what ever it is I do in my spare time. <>
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Nightmare Come True

Nightmare come true....
I was asked out by this guy, BUT before you laugh read the whole story, and then you'll know why it's a nightmare.

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An ex-friend of mine had sent a text message to a guy I liked that was my aunt's neighbor and we were really close friends. To my greater surprise, he said yes. I was happy, delierious. It was the best 13 days of my life. I was at my dad's that week, so I didn't even get to see him, but Friday June 13 I got to see him. He came over to my aunts and we played Guitar Hero, held hands, cuddled, all totally in my safe zone. Never more. It was like that all week, until it was time for me to go to my dad's again. I didn't want to go, but I had to.
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That same ex-friend was over, we were close then. It was weird, the feeling I got when she dared me to call and leave a voice mail that said it was over, until the very end of it, by which I said, "hey it was all a joke, I still love you." That deadly feeling grew in my stomach when he didn't call or text me that night. I worried. I textd him. He didn't make it to the end of the voicemail before he hung up and punched a wall.
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We tried to talk it out... It didn't work. I hurt him so much that it was never going to be the same again, which broke my heart as much as it broke his. It was early morning. 2 or 3 a.m. I cried all night, and the next night, and the next one. My ex-friend tried to get me to blame her, but deep down inside: i knew it was my fault.
He got over it a lot faster than I did. There wasn't any use, trying to get him to go back out with me. So I was devestated, crushed, torn, over. Our friendship has been rocky ever since.

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And then, Friday night, my family was hanging with his family, enjoying a warm firepit on a cold october night. I could feel his eyes on me. Then I got the text where he asked me back out. I wanted to cry. I had just gotten over him, finally moved on. I told him I didn't want to get hurt, so i'd think about it. 5 minutes later I got another text that said, "I can only hope you say yes."
I didn't answer. I was 2 seconds away from texting yes when he texted, " I only wish you would've told me sooner. I was just asked out and I don't know what to say." I changed my mind then. Told him,"go ahead and chose her if you want. but i was close to saying yes." Never again do I want to go out with him, knowing what kind of pain I had caused for the both of us. I think I ruined our friendship, by telling him no. I know it's messed up, but he kind of won't talk to me. He did break his phone, but he used to tell me that he like to talk on the phone better than texting. But, yes. Ever since the day I got over him I didn't want him to ask me back out. I had dreams about him, about what had happened in those 13 days. I hated it. It was like my mind was playing tricks on me, taunting me with what I wanted to feel again.
He has ruined my weekend, but yet, even thought I said no, I still love him.
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1 month 2 days!!!!

I would so marry...

If some guy I know (that is not from Hick Town/Shelbyville) was to come up to me and say,"If I'll be your Edward, Will you be my Bella" I would, Die, come back, Marry, and live happily ever after with that man. But they would have to have read at leas Twilight, but if he read them all, I would Love him more than words.... *SIGHS* Gotta love that book....
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1month 9days

OH<>EHM<>GEE<>

I AM IN LOVE>>>>I was searching in Youtube for Twilight Trailors and found this. Watch it,, PLEASE! I had goosebumps from the song and I so want that video for my Mp3 and I almost cried!!! It was wonderfully beautiful and OMG, I don't think I can stop freaking out! MY HANDS ARE SHAKING!!! *Breathe, you idiot, BREATHE!!* IN---OUT---- IN ---OUT---IT"S NOT WORKING!!! Someone pinch me,PLEASE.... CAN SOMEONE PLEASE SHOW ME HOW TO PUT VIDEO'S ON MY BLOG PAGE!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!??
Must go suffer..
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ONE MONTH AND 9DAYS LEFT!!!!!!! AAAAHHHHH!!!!!!

Video>>> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fORuwYBL8c

Given Up...

I've given up on trying to find my place in this world and with God. I'm tired of people putting me down for things I do or the things I say, and I'm tired of trying to be the good little Christan girl because all my dad does is put me down saying, "oh well this and this in the bible is wrong" or "you and your faith have it all wrong" when nobody know's what is right or wrong. No one knows who to follow, and no one know why we're here even thought we might say we do. I'm done with it all, Anne, even though I still go to church and youthgroup, and I still respect God. I'm just wishing that there was a guide book that wasn't the bible that told me on what I wanted to do. Life sucks and I don't want to end mine, I want to make it better. I don't know where I stand in your life after this, and I don't konw if you'll still be my friedn but all I know is that it took a lot of courage to finally admit this to you. The last person I told about this was Julia and she blew a gaskit over it. I'm sorry I'm not who you thought I was, but even I don't know who I am anymore.

So, any ways....

Yeah, I started a new blog. it's the one that's on my profile. yeah, you know the drill. For those of you who care it's about a story, well, actually it is my story, but not the one I've been telling you all so much about. It's a different one. Oh, and Avonlee, I need title options for the story that mixes mine and yours and I would also like your permission for me to put it on the internet (well at least the conjointed parts, I couldn't give a second thought on the rest of it.) But yeah, Let me know.
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Sooo, I kinda like this one the best...

I really really really like the Cambridge University in London, England. It's the one that I've gone totally nuts over in the past couple of hours.
AWESOMENESS>>>
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If I had to choose now, I'd be dead.

So.. I would be totally dead if I had to choose a college, like, now. I'm totally for staying close to the family, but I would really like to go to London for college. I know, I know, I have what...3 years before I need to get really hard-core about this stuff.. but it doesn't hurt to plan ahead. I have 3 career choices lined up right now: psychologist, author, or vet... but I'm worried about the whole animal thing. I'm worried about a lot, actually. I think I could rename this blog and call it WORRIES>>> But I like my title.
WAHO>> off corse. Kay, I was at colleges.
HOME<<>>AWAY???
Purdue University???
Cambridge University????
Oxford University????

A lil information on Cambridge:


'Cambridge is one of the world’s great universities, and has the ability to transform lives. If you study here, you will experience that quality at first hand. Day to day, you will work with academic staff who are leaders in their fields, and who are also committed to see you succeed, and to help you develop your ideas, knowledge and understanding.
The secret of Cambridge’s great teaching strength is to be found in the partnership between the Colleges and the University: a combination which provides superb facilities, contact with the very best minds, and the personal support to help you make the most of them. You will have an unparalleled chance to develop your academic interests, and to explore plentiful opportunities for sports, drama, political and social activities.
It adds up to a remarkable educational experience which will challenge you while you’re here, and provide a springboard for your future career: Cambridge graduates are to be found at the highest levels of industry, academia, the arts, public service, and commerce.
It matters to all of us here that the doors of this University are open to all students with the highest intellectual potential to succeed. There is no ‘right background’, no hidden test of social or economic circumstances, no right school to have attended. We work hard at making sure of this, assessing each applicant individually, and encouraging the widest possible pool of talented applicants. In particular, we have created the Cambridge Bursary Scheme to ensure that financial considerations are not a barrier to applications from gifted students. Whoever you are and wherever you come from, if you have the ability, the enthusiasm and the motivation, then we want to hear from you.
My days as an undergraduate here were a hugely important time for me. I hope that you will find in this Prospectus the inspiration to apply, and to find out for yourself what Cambridge has to offer.
Professor Alison Richard'

Purdue:


Purdue University ranks in the top 62 research institutions in North America. In 2005-06, the University expended more than $400 million in support of research, using funds received from the state and federal governments, industry, foundations, and individual donors. Purdue faculty are world-renowned experts in their fields working in world-class laboratories and classrooms. Purdue offers more than 400 research laboratories and 100 discipline-specific centers and institutes, including several that are uniquely recognized in their fields. For the latest news on Purdue Research.

Oxford:

Welcome to the University of Oxford. People from all walks of life and all parts of the world have been visiting us for nine centuries and we are delighted that via this website you are joining that long tradition. Oxford was the first University in the English-speaking world. Our aim is to remain at the forefront of centres of learning, teaching and research.
Oxford’s remarkable global appeal continues to grow. More than a hundred and thirty nationalities are represented among a student population of over eighteen thousand. Almost a quarter comes from outside the United Kingdom.
But it is not just longevity and global reach that mark Oxford out and give the University its special character. There is also our distinctive college and tutorial system which underpins a culture of close academic supervision and careful personal support for our outstanding students. Our colleges and halls of which there are more than forty also help to foster the intense interdisciplinary approach that inspires much of the outstanding research achievement of the University and makes Oxford a leader in so many fields. It is an approach especially suited to confronting many of the hugely complex challenges that face us all. That is why we believe that the greater we can make Oxford, the greater its contribution to the well-being of the world you and I share.
The Rt Hon Lord Patten of Barnes, CH

So, I have a problem... I don't know which one to choose.... AWW CRAP!!! I shouldn't be stuck in this situation. But can I get some inputs, PPPLLLEEEAAASSSEEE!!! I'm Desprate!

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Putting it off.....

Sooo... I've been putting off the whole story thing for way too long.... But it's going to have to wait until this weekend. I just don't have the time right now because i sped all of my computer time writing to April, my e-mail penpal and thinking about what questions i''m going to ask her today... but heyy, I'm just a Teenage girl who doesn't know how to use my time wisely. But i guess that should'nt matter. I'll put it on this weekend, and That I can't promise anything but I'll try.
g2g

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My friend....

So, more on my friend from the UK. Her name is April. She too has a blog, but she shares it with,like, seven other people. it's http:// http://rangelscentral.blogspot.com/ .... I think. I'm not positive about that one.
But anyways She sent me an e-mail and now we're e-mail penpals... YAY!!!!
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Heyy,

I MADE A NEW FRIEND!!!!!!
I'll tell you about her later but for right now.. She lives in the U.K. !!!! I'm so UBER excited!!!!
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